Historically, breakfast and I have a complicated relationship. In the beginning stages of my eating disorder, I always ate breakfast but I had extremely strict rules about it. The only food I’d allow myself to eat for breakfast was oatmeal, and I was really strict about the amount, the pace I ate it, the temperature … More Do the Thing You Don’t Want to Do (a Story About Breakfast)
I thought losing weight was going to fix all my problems for me. But it didn’t. Really, it only created more problems. #notworthit As humans in general, I think we’re always on the lookout for the next easy fix. We want to find that one secret solution that will make our lives easier so that … More Body Image or Body Idolatry?
My eating disorder started out as an effort to be healthy. At the same time, I wanted to be skinny, or at least skinnier. Restricting my diet helped me lose weight (at least initially) under a socially acceptable guise of health. I was eating “clean” because it would help me run faster. Or something. [PSA: … More Thinness ≠ Happiness
COVID has been a lesson in flexibility for me. What about you? To be totally honest, I’m not always the best at rolling with the punches. I like my life to be steady and predictable despite the fact that it rarely is either of those things. So yes, I’m a recovering control freak. I certainly … More Food Freedom & Flexibility
When I first really “got the hang of” intuitive eating—so to speak—I was enormously relieved by the fact that my eating became very stable and predictable. In my previous dieting days, eating was a huge source of stress for me because I was constantly afraid that I’d lose control around food. I had preconceived notions … More Hungry Days