Do the Thing You Don’t Want to Do (a Story About Breakfast)

Historically, breakfast and I have a complicated relationship. In the beginning stages of my eating disorder, I always ate breakfast but I had extremely strict rules about it. The only food I’d allow myself to eat for breakfast was oatmeal, and I was really strict about the amount, the pace I ate it, the temperature … More Do the Thing You Don’t Want to Do (a Story About Breakfast)

Thinness ≠ Happiness

My eating disorder started out as an effort to be healthy. At the same time, I wanted to be skinny, or at least skinnier. Restricting my diet helped me lose weight (at least initially) under a socially acceptable guise of health. I was eating “clean” because it would help me run faster. Or something. [PSA: … More Thinness ≠ Happiness

Hungry Days

When I first really “got the hang of” intuitive eating—so to speak—I was enormously relieved by the fact that my eating became very stable and predictable. In my previous dieting days, eating was a huge source of stress for me because I was constantly afraid that I’d lose control around food. I had preconceived notions … More Hungry Days